Happy When I Left

As the weekend ended I realized there is really no chance a relationship could developed. So I gave up the excitement for a new relationship with one I could care for and love and make happy and cuddle with for the rest of my life and the euphoria quickly faded.  Maybe under different circumstances and maybe in a different time it could have developed. But, she seems enamored with this other guy who is available for her as he lives closer to her, and is buffed and strong with a six pack. And, I don’t want to disrupt that as it has for her the possibility of a long lasting relationship and some happiness for her.

Reminds me of this song. Elton John’s “Love Her Like Me” from his Songs From the West Coast album.

I would apply that song to another girl I knew from college, who I was enamored with but tidal forces kept her away even though I was the best man at her wedding.

Life can be cruel at times.

And so, the euphoria from last week is now gone. Although I kept the calories in check and only limited the beer calories to two bottles of Three Floyds Gumball Head with the euphoria faded the neutrality back into play I am once again wondering why.

But, in an effort to reduce weight and body fat and to get back in shape, I will continue to keep the calories in check, returning to the consumption of Slimfast and salads.

The Gumball Head gave me a head and stomach ache, too.

On another note, I had to shop for new clothes for a fathers day cookout. Going to my little brother’s estate (yes, it is an estate) is a trauma for me as it displays the economic and social separation between us.

I would say it is a gulf, a deep canyon of rock carved by years of parent devotion poured on him and indifferent tolerance toward me.

So, not having the having the right clothes to attend a fathers day cook out in a multi million dollar estate, I stopped at Kohl’s to shop for a simple polo shirt and a pair of shorts. Thankfully, I found a shirt and a pair of shorts.

Although, the shorts were a 38 and the shirt an extra large, I accepted my expanded girth and paid the dollars so I could at least be presentable at the brothers estate, knowing that it would be tolerated in quiet indifference.

A few hours later I was happy when I left the estate in my new clothes while Elton John’s “The Emperor’s New Clothes” hummed in my head.

Somewhere in western Kansas. June 2015.

Somewhere in western Kansas. June 2015.

 

 

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Fathers Day at the Oaken Barrel

Last night, the kids took me out to one of my favorite brewery for Fathers Day, the Oaken Barrel in Greenwood Indiana. For calorie control, I had only one tall Razz Wheat with my chicken caesar salad.

My Fitness Pal reports one pint of Razz Wheat has 150 calories. I believe a ‘tall’ glass at the Oaken Barrel is one and a half pints. So, my beer calories for Thursday, June 14, 2018 was 225 calories.

I couldn’t find an official calorie count for the chicken caesar salad but will estimate it to be about 850 calories since I ate the cheesed croutons.

So, yesterday, with the calorie control was ok for yesterday at 1,435. Of course, this is an estimated guess.

Yet, I didn’t include the calories in the glass of chocolate milk I had at bedtime.

The euphoria from Wednesday has faded a bit. But there is a glimmer of a new euphoria by the opportunity to see someone this weekend that may spark a relationship.

A self portrait take on September 26, 2014 via the basement portholes at the Lew Wallace Study and Museum in Crawfordsville, Indiana.

A self portrait taken on September 26, 2014 via the basement porthole at the Lew Wallace Study and Museum in Crawfordsville, Indiana.

No Title For This Post #001

So … I am on the third day of my new No-Beer streak. It’s only been three days for this streak starting June 10 but the previous streak was eight days, starting June 1. I had two beers on June 9. So, in the past eleven days, I have had only two beers.

Go me.

Which is significant as two beers was a daily consumption and usually it was more than two beers.

But, since I’m now on an “eat less move more” kick, which really is an “eat fewer calories and burn more calories” kick, I decided to limit the beer calories.

I haven’t officially started to count calories but I am mindful of calories. So, today, I had a Slim Fast shake (180 calories) for breakfast and one for lunch (180 calories). For a snack, I had a McDonald’s breakfast burrito (290 calories) that someone gave me this morning and I just ate as a snack.

So, so far today my calorie count is 670, which is 41% of 1,600 calories, if I was limiting to 1,600 calories.

This evening, I will have a salad with canned chicken for about 800 calories.

Another photo from the Indy Pride Festival, 2018. Love this photo with the girl's expression and the reflections in her glasses.

Another photo from the Indy Pride Festival, 2018. Love this photo with the girl’s expression and the reflections in her glasses. Photo by me.

A friend asked if there was a correlation between the lack of fruits and vegetables in my diet and the depression I suffer from. I suppose it would be an easy connection as he isn’t depressed and eats a lot of fruits and vegetables. Since I don’t and I have depression, there must be some sort of connection.

C’Est La Vie.

Calories and Art


Calories for Wednesday, April 5, 2017

My total calories for Wednesday, April 5, 2017 was a heavy 1,853, which is 243 calories above my daily target of 1,610 calories.

The bulk of the calories came at dinner, where I consumed a plate of Spaghetti Carbonara, a caesar side salad and a slice of bread. I also had two bottles of Sierra Nevada Pale Ale. The total dinner calories were 1,453.

The family gathered at an Italian restaurant to celebrate my mom’s recovery from her stroke of late February. She has made a marvelous recovery. A doctor visit earlier that day confirmed that she is on her way to a full recovery. It was the first time mom has been outside the house (except for doctor’s appointments) since the event.

I had the usual Slim Fast shake for breakfast and a protein bar for lunch. I realize the two bottle of the all-so-wonderful Sierra Nevada Pale Ale pushed me over the target. Had I refrained from consuming the beer I would have been under the target. Fortunately I stopped at two bottles.

I had zero exercise calories for the day. Thankfully, the pain in my feet has subsided. It’s not gone but is fading. I may be ready for a short walk or run over the weekend.


New Art

Yesterday I mentioned that I purchased a drawing from the Tri Kappa New Artist show at the Lafayette Art Museum in Lafayette, Indiana. I intended to include a photo but did not include it before I posted. Anyways, here is the photo.

Loss Of Innocence, a drawing that I purchased from the Tri Kappa New Artist show at the Lafayette Art Museum, Lafayette, Indiana.

Loss Of Innocence, a drawing that I purchased from the Tri Kappa New Artist show at the Lafayette Art Museum, Lafayette, Indiana.

I’m amazed at the talent these young artists exhibit. The works in painting, drawing, textiles and sculpture was varied and showed concern for theme and style. The Loss of innocence drawing is really a mixed media piece, a drawing and collage. It caught my heart and attention as there is so much to look at and explore about in this piece, one reason why I love a great collage as this one is. Thankfully, it was still for sale. Many pieces were not for sale as patrons had already bought those items. The show started on March 9, 2017. I walked through the galleries three weeks later.

View of one gallery of the Tri Kappa New Artist show at the Lafayette Art Museum, Lafayette, Indiana. There were two galleries of new student art work.

View of one gallery of the Tri Kappa New Artist show at the Lafayette Art Museum, Lafayette, Indiana. There were two galleries of new and original student art work.


Wishing Everyone a Great and Beautiful Day !!

New Exhibits

I have not been to the Fort Wayne Museum of Art, yet I am on their email list. This morning the museum sent an email announcing two upcoming exhibits, Juxtaposed and Robert Williams: SLANG Aesthetics!

From the Fort Wayne Museum of Art web site, Juxtaposed “showcases the New Contemporary movement,  widely considered the largest and longest running art movement in history”. The SLANG Aesthetics! exhibit features Robert Williams who is “upheld as the godfather of the low-brow and pop surrealist art movements, and with as much frequency denigrated as an irreverent iconoclast among the arbiters of ‘high’ art”.

I am going to add the Fort Wayne Museum of Art to My Art Museum Bucket List. At least to take in these two exhibits, which runs from April 22 – July 23, 2017. This may prompt scheduling a vacation day to drive to Fort Wayne for the day. There is some family history in Fort Wayne as my paternal grandfather worked for Philo Farnsworth at the Farnsworth Television and Radio Corporation. I’m certain there is a historical marker somewhere in Fort Wayne I can search for.

I have a copy of the May 2013 issue of Juxtaposed magazine, yet don’t subscribe. I like the  high contrast art and text in that issue. Although I enjoyed that issue, I never subscribed. I don’t believe I saw another issue on the news stand. However, I have remedied that ‘issue’ and subscribed via the web site.

I have not heard of Robert Williams, the SLANG artist. This exhibition will allow me to know more about his work and his personality. I enjoy reading about artists and how they make their art, what effort they put into their craft, the emotions are revealed.


Calories for Tuesday, April 4, 2017.

I ended the day at 1,370 calories. That is 240 calories below my target of 1,610. I had the usual Slim Fast shake for breakfast, a protein bar for lunch, two beers for evening ‘cocktails’ and a bowl of Maple and Brown Sugar instant oatmeal for dinner.

I hope the Slim Fast shake and the protein bar gave the minimal amount of essential nutrients as I’m certain the beer didn’t and not certain about the oatmeal. Although the beer gave me a lift over the low level funk and the oatmeal was very sweet.

I walked two miles in the morning of April 4 for 169 calories. My feet were really hurting so I ended the walk. I decided to stay away from walking or running for a few days so my feet could stop hurting. Maybe I’m overdoing the exercise, or have bad shoes?


New Art

I purchased a drawing/collage by Nicole Huff, a student at McCutcheon High School. I saw her drawing in the Tri Kappa New Artist Show at the Lafayette Museum of Art. The drawing struck a cord in my emotions and so I bought it. It is titled “Loss of Innocence”.

I haven’t made any new art of my own. Although, I have built stretcher frames for 13 new paintings. I have one more frame to build and then I can start to make some new drip paintings. My parents asked if I would make a new painting for their home, so I should get on with the process.


Wishing Everyone a Fantastic Day !!

In a Low Level Funk …

Seem to be in a funk. Although I am determined to continue my weight loss effort, I seem to have slipped into a low level funk.

It’s not depression. I certainly know what that is. But, this is just a “– oh hum –” type of thing. I don’t seem to have any enthusiasm or desire for much of anything at the moment.

Hopefully it will soon pass.


Calories for Monday, April 3, 2017

I ended the day at 1,350 calories. I had the typical Slim Fast shake for breakfast and lunch. For an evening ‘cocktail’, I had 24 ounces of beer, wonderful beer. For dinner, I had a bowl of oatmeal. It was the Kroger instant, maple and brown sugar. It was easy to prepare, sweet to eat.

Exercise was good. I got five miles in for 423 calories. I walked two miles during my lunch break and another three miles in the evening. I was able to get in the Week 3 Day 1 C25K workout during the evening walk.

I must be doing too much walking or running, probably in the wrong kind of shoes because my feet really hurt. It kind of hurts to walk or run. So, I believe I will take a few days off from exercising. Hopefully that will prevent any further injury, if it is really an injury.


Well, I hope everyone has a great day !!

Bummer

169.8 … bummer, a weight gain. Ah … my first gain in this twelve week effort.

Disappointed? Yes. Anxious? Somewhat. Why? I hope this is not the beginning of an extended affair with weight gain or a notorious plateau.

Last week I was at 169.0. This week it is 169.8. So, a 0.8 pound gain. Next week, I hope to be under 169.0 as I believe this 0.8 pound gain to be some sort of fluid retention and not actual fat. At least, that is my hope.

My eating over the last week was in control. Save for Friday night, where I logged 2,244 calories from a salad, a beer, a Slim Fast shake, two slices of meat lovers pizza, and a healthy amount of ice cream. And, there were no exercise to offset those mega calories.

Otherwise, the eating and exercise was ‘normal’.

The only item that could, maybe, cause the weight gain is the amount of Diet Mountain Dew that I am consuming. I drank six 16 ounce bottles in the last three days. And, my water consumption is down.

Ah … so … my first weight gain since January 1, 2017. It had to happen sooner or later. But, there are some non scale victories to report and hopefully balance out the slight  trauma of a weight gain.

  • I have received 3 compliments in the last 4 days on the weight loss … so people are noticing.
  • I can comfortably tighten the belt past the 5th notch … so I am losing belly fat even though the scale ticked upwards this week
  • My heart rate was pinged at 54 this morning … the lowest I’ve seen it in a very, very long time.

The weight gain is disappointing. Though, on the bright side, at least I stayed under 170. And, it had to happen sooner or later so I’m not really surprised that it has finally happened. At least it was only a 0.8 pound gain.


Wishing Everyone a Great Monday